THREE Steps Forward! Whew!
Things are going MUCH MUCH better now. I was able to hold Sam last night and today. He's already off the oxygen, heated bed, and IV. In fact, they're thinking now that he doesn't even have an infection.
And on top of all this wonderfulness, Sam drank two FULL bottles today all on his own!! Talk about a Father's Day present! I was able to feed him one of those bottles and, boy, was I proud of that kid! I am so happy right now. Everything is coming together, it seems, at last. The end is in sight. As soon as Sam can drink all of his bottles on his own for five days, then he can be discharged. Maybe it'll be this weekend. I really hope so...
All of this has put me in a pondering mood. Today at church I was thinking about how it's been a while since I've gone through a trial of this magnitude in a long time... if ever. I've heard the Sunday School lessons on trials and tribulations and how Heavenly Father actually BLESSES us with them for our own good and growth; I just never thought about why Heavenly Father chooses which trials go to which people. Why do some people lose jobs and others lose babies? Or why do some people deal with depression and others deal with racial injustices? Then I got to thinking that if I were dealt with someone else's trial of a drug addiction, let's say... well it wouldn't be as big of a deal for me because that doesn't appeal to me or has ever been an issue. Or if I were suddenly to become unemployed (if I were still teaching), it wouldn't be as big of a setback because I have Rex to depend on and financial support from family if it ever came to that.
So this is what I think. I think that Heavenly Father blesses us with these particular trials because either we need to be strengthened in that area or we need to be tested of our faith because we value that area so much. If I valued drugs or money or whatever, trials of that nature would be very difficult. When I thought about it that way, I almost felt honored that Heavenly Father was giving us this trial right now because it shows me that He knows that I value my family. He knows that I am striving to be a good mother and wife, and that all this will help me not take it all for granted. Right now I am separated from my husband and son. I could be happy as the hills that I don't have to make dinner for them or clean up smudgy handprints off the walls. Instead, I would give anything now to hear Aiden give a temper tantrum or to see Rex go in public in his slippers. All these silly, trivial annoyances have gone away... and I realize how deeply I love and miss my family. Sam will make it through all this. He's a fighter. And he's bringing our family closer to each other and closer to Heavenly Father.
And on top of all this wonderfulness, Sam drank two FULL bottles today all on his own!! Talk about a Father's Day present! I was able to feed him one of those bottles and, boy, was I proud of that kid! I am so happy right now. Everything is coming together, it seems, at last. The end is in sight. As soon as Sam can drink all of his bottles on his own for five days, then he can be discharged. Maybe it'll be this weekend. I really hope so...
All of this has put me in a pondering mood. Today at church I was thinking about how it's been a while since I've gone through a trial of this magnitude in a long time... if ever. I've heard the Sunday School lessons on trials and tribulations and how Heavenly Father actually BLESSES us with them for our own good and growth; I just never thought about why Heavenly Father chooses which trials go to which people. Why do some people lose jobs and others lose babies? Or why do some people deal with depression and others deal with racial injustices? Then I got to thinking that if I were dealt with someone else's trial of a drug addiction, let's say... well it wouldn't be as big of a deal for me because that doesn't appeal to me or has ever been an issue. Or if I were suddenly to become unemployed (if I were still teaching), it wouldn't be as big of a setback because I have Rex to depend on and financial support from family if it ever came to that.
So this is what I think. I think that Heavenly Father blesses us with these particular trials because either we need to be strengthened in that area or we need to be tested of our faith because we value that area so much. If I valued drugs or money or whatever, trials of that nature would be very difficult. When I thought about it that way, I almost felt honored that Heavenly Father was giving us this trial right now because it shows me that He knows that I value my family. He knows that I am striving to be a good mother and wife, and that all this will help me not take it all for granted. Right now I am separated from my husband and son. I could be happy as the hills that I don't have to make dinner for them or clean up smudgy handprints off the walls. Instead, I would give anything now to hear Aiden give a temper tantrum or to see Rex go in public in his slippers. All these silly, trivial annoyances have gone away... and I realize how deeply I love and miss my family. Sam will make it through all this. He's a fighter. And he's bringing our family closer to each other and closer to Heavenly Father.
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